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| In my 20s, when I felt like giving up on setting 100 cage traps to trap small mammals in the plantation in Bintulu. |
I have been questioning myself recently. After nearly 20 years in this field, I would like to know whether I am a genuine conservationist. What contributions have I made? What skills and knowledge have I gained? What is my area of expertise? Have I received any awards or recognition for my work?
What triggers this doubt?
Recently, my supervisor asked me, "What is your contribution to the organisation after almost ten years of working here?" His question has lingered in my mind. It has led me to doubt my ability to carry out my work. I obtained my Master's Degree in Environmental Conservation last year and returned with high spirits and determination to contribute to wildlife conservation efforts in my state, Sarawak.
Unfortunately, politics and differing views on work ethic have diminished my motivation and enthusiasm. It's incredibly frustrating!
Looking back on my journey fills me with gratitude for the incredible growth I've achieved! Participating in more than ten collaborative research projects across a variety of taxa—mammals, birds, insects, frogs, and plants—has truly deepened my passion for the natural world. This blog reflects my nearly 20-year adventure, showcasing my evolution along the way. Revisiting my entries here not only inspires me but also revives the bright spark of enthusiasm that fuels my love for nature!
To my colleagues and young women in conservation, let's keep pushing forward. It’s perfectly fine if we haven’t received awards or recognition; our small contributions truly matter! We matter!
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